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For the past, oh I don't know..5-6 yrs I guess Mark & I have always known when Angel passed away we wanted to have her cremated & have her ashes returned to us. Because we rent & it just didn't feel right burying her wherever we were living at the time & then one day packing up & moving..having to leave her behind. We wouldn't have ever left her behind if she was living, so leaving her body buried in the ground just wasn't an option.
Even if we owned our home, the ground is frozen all the way down to hell right now so that was that..
My dad made her a beautiful urn to keep her ashes in.
I took it to the Vet Hospital yesterday, and told them I would come back later when Mark got home to pick it up. That was the first time I had been in there since "that night". Who would have thought, just walking into a vet hospital would bring up so many tears & hurt? WOW, the tears were rolling before I was inside all the way, by time I was to the counter I couldn't even talk. Thank God I had called & talked to one of the ladies before going there..Because all I could do was point & say her name. And thank God she understood what I was trying to say because she just touched my hand & said they would take care of it.
After Mark got off work we went to bring our baby girl home.
We walked in & there it was, sitting on the counter. They had saved some of her curls for me. And there was also a cremation/death certificate.
I had planned on putting it in my curio so nothing happens to it. But, it just didn't feel right..She doesn't belong in a curio & she's not a cat, so she doesn't belong on a shelf. So, the only logical place to put her was where she loved being....next to my desk on the floor..right where she can see me at my desk, in the kitchen..she has her spot & that's where she'll stay until we move. I just moved her bed over, Tobi has been sleeping in it lately.
I was hoping her fur they saved for me would still smell like her, but it doesn't. :o(
I have a pretty picture of her that I put in a frame & plan on attaching it to the front of the urn & I want to decorate it with ribbons & beads.
Its beautiful..but nothing can be as beautiful as her.
I still miss her..but it feels like its a little easier knowing she's home & back where she belongs..with me.
